I know spring is supposed to be all about the rebirth of life, and beauty and of the Earth but...I guess this year it's not-for me. This time around it's summer.
I'm starting over new this summer. I know I've been talking about that for a little while, but I'm serious.
I'm changing.
Only the stupidest of men never change.
My finals were this week, and now that my sophomore school year is over I'm sort of bummed. I didn't get the best of grades. Well, I did...but not in one class. I truly tried hard in that class, and my parents don't think so. I'm not being allowed to go to the concerts I want to this year, including GaGa, the Black Eyed Peas, 3OH!3, Ke$ha, and LMFAO.
I need to do better next year, and not just get serious with school towards the end. Right? Right.
It's going to be my junior year, and I was going to try to graduate early but I don't think so anymore. So this summer, I want to do what I want. I don't want to sit around and mope, or go places with people I hate.
I realized I have a lot more friends than I thought. I originally want only a few people to sign my yearbook, but now I have a lot of signatures. Like...a lot. Especially after yesterday.
I'm a likable good guy.
I also know I'm an asshole who's hard to get along with at the same time. While going through that said yearbook, I realized I have negative feelings towards a lot of people. I think I put to much pressure on other people's appearances because I feel like they do the same to me. I mean, feeling good starts with looking good...And I don't look good. Why should I make someone else feel good?
I also know I put too much emphasis on the material things. This is bad.
The best things in life are not things.
They're people.
So.
I do in fact have a new boyfriend. His name is Gabriel DeShoni and he is the most remarkable person in the whole world. He's just so funny and sweet. And I love his huge dumb smile. He's just...Idk.
He says he loves me, but he told me I don't have to say it back till I feel that back. I don't love him yet. But I really really like him. A lot.
I think it's pretty cute that he takes his shirt off when it's possible. Like at the park, at his house. Anywhere. I spent all weekend with him at the mall.
"Cayluuuuuuub, can we go yet? I gotta take my shirt offffffffffff!" I cracked up. He bought me a new industrial bar. It's red and pretty. We started officially dating the 15th.
He left for Kansas city for two weeks on Tuesday. He has to figure something out with where he's staying for college in the fall. So on June 17th he turns 20, and people think that's weird. It's only a 4 year difference. And no, he doesn't just want to have sex cause he's denied me.... XD
But he does say things like "I bet your butt is like soooo tight."
or
"You want my cooooooooooock, you wanna suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck it."
Lawl.
He calls me sexy boy, especially in public which makes me blush lots.
Is anyone else sick and tired of hearing about people like Kate Gosselin.
GTFO, KATE!
Lady GaGa is still the best person in the world.
In case your forgot...
Want some advice?
Never challenge an old man, because if you lose, you’ve lost to an old man, and if you win, so what?
I have new "modeling" pictures. They're neat, I guess. I'll share them sometime.
I love Lady GaGa's new song Vanity. If you haven't heard it go listen. I think it's one of her old demos from her teen years (which you should go find on youtube. Especially 'future love'.)
