I'm not baaaad..I just sound that waaay(;

The title has to be my favorite quote from a Lady GaGa song ever. It's called Ribbons. It's unreleased, a demo.

So therefore, it's the song of the week!

Push play, you have to listen to it while you read my blog(:

K?K.

Mom isn't so...excited about me getting green hair anymore, since she realized I'm serious. But my friend's mother is going to do it for $10 at her salon. I get a discount of like 40 bucks cause her mom loves me and my gossip.

What I really want is red hair, or to be a natural blonde...a fake natural blonde. Kind of like my friend Cherish's hair. It's just gorgeous. She's just gorgeous.

I miss all my friends. I haven't hung out with any of my friends yet this summer. I've only been going out with Gabe's sister and her friends. I love them. 

Do you know who Zak is?

She was the, uh, Indian girl who took pictures of me?

Well no more!

Now I have her friend...x-friend...Warnie. His real name is Warren. He's so hot and I want him, but he's engaged to a girl and like 21. 

He took pictures of me...naked....for...his portfolio. It was about "death" or something. I'm going to be honest, he's a really bad photographer but I do love this one picture.

Risky Picture...Click

Summer is going to be fun, I just know it!

I'm so sick of men thinking that just because I'm gay that makes me any less of a guy then them. I fuck a guy so fucking what? I like cars, I like sports. As long as I have a goddamn dick between my legs I'm a man. That's such bullshit. I'm not a lesser person just cause I prefer other guys. I mean, FUCK.

There's some drama in the ole love life. OR, there was.

A few days ago, Chris read my blog and basically said he loved me, etc. I guess I'm lying if I say I don't have feelings for him...I just hate when he does that, because it gets my hopes up and then the next day it's back like it was. We're just friends, and he doesn't like me. He got pissed at me cause i told him we should just be friends. He said that if I love and want him more than Gabe, which is true, why am I with him? I want to be with Chris so much. And I know it would piss my friends off and Gabe, but still. So then Chris said his new bf broke up with him. And because of all the things he told me, how he wants me, etc, I dumped Gabe and what do you know? Chris doesn't want me. And so I'm back with Gabe. I didn't tell Gabe I dumped him for Chris, but over something his sister said. Which is sorta true, I guess.

I think Chris just gets jealous of Gabe and tries to get me to dump him. I love Chris. I don't know why. I'm not in love with him anymore. But I do care about him deeply. I value him more than Gabe. Maybe that's why he wanted me to dump Gabe? Or acted like it...cause I don't really care about Gabe? He's just there.

What really pisses me off is that Chris, when he broke up with me, told me that he just didn't want a relationship right now. Which makes me mad, cause then I find out he is dating someone later. Wtf? He just didn't want a relationship with me. And that hurts....

I miss Chris.

I miss Gabe, too. At least Gabe will be back. He's coming back on the 1st and for the first time, I honestly can't wait. I need him..I need someone. I think I love Gabe. I think about him all the time. And every night he calls me to say goodnight. It goes something like this.

"Hello?"

"Hiiiiii"

"GABE:D"

"Duh...Cayluuuuub"

"Ehehe(: ..Gaaabe"

"I love you, boy"

"I know"

"I hope you get an amazing sleep, and I hope that you get wet dreams over me. Really. Raawr"

I really want blonde hair. It's killing me.

I've also decided I want to go to college in Southern California cause there are loads of gay people there. And Gabe is talking about transferring there for his last two years of college. Also, If I still have feelings for Chris I don't think I could go to Chicago if he does. But I doubt he will since it's far away from his home. Cherish is supposed to go to Chicago though.

Did you listen to that Ribbons song?

It's about putting on condoms!

 Practicing safe sex(:

Isn't that clever?

Watch as I analyze the lyrics(:

We like black, white, big striped,
Polka-dotted cafe latte presents

 Come in many sizes wrap it up in ribbons. <DIFFERENT SIZED PENISES OH SNAP PUT ON A RUBBER.

OKAY,

SO,

What do you think of that photo?
THE NUDE?